WATDEHELLL. You saw me smiling, you saw me laughing. But GOD KNOWS. Hanya semata-mata I wrote something yang ceria dan happy-happy yang 50 peratus saja dari realiti, those people yang know my real story said I am a plastic. Habis tu, do I have to tell every single thing? Yang sedih, yang sakit, yang pedih? Do I have to tell them (the readers) that I am now tengah berperang dengan perasaan? That I am now striving for life? Thanks for helping. Waktu ni terketar-ketar jari menaip menahan rasa. Nak menangis pun tak guna. But if I cry, at least I know I am still alive yet deep inside I know I am strong enough to face this. Allah knows what am I capable of, and I am okey. ALLAH KNOWS.