Okey sebenarnya baru selesai siap kerja. Tidak pernah habis pun tapi decide yang lainnya setelkan besok. Rajin saya setakat 3AM tadi. Pastu tiba-tiba sedar saja eh tengah tulis blog?

Helo blog. It's been few months already. Disember dan Januari langsung tiada update. It's not that I do not do anything, in fact, these 2 months was one of those most roller coaster, exciting months and I took many pictures too! Lama sudah tidak ambil gambar banyak-banyak so that's why I consider I am doing pretty well for my early 2016. My previous years was way too dull.. Very stressful. :)

Sebenarnya di lubuk hatiku yang paling dalam masih berhasrat satu hari nanti saya update blog ni on daily basis. Mungkin bermula minggu depan, atau bulan depan, atau tahun depan, atau esok. Eh esok? Atau yang paling kejam, lagi 10 tahun. Aktiviti terkini boleh tengok di instagram saya, though. I think the only social media saya update sekarang lebih kepada instagram (autopost di facebook). But seriously memang nak aktif blog balik, em but again everytime bukak blog pun memang kinda berjanji pada diri mau update selalu tapi end up, senyap sepi gelap gulita wahahah.

Lama tak blogwalk. Do people actually still blog? Jap. Yang betulnya, adakah orang-orang yang start berblog lebih kurang saya (around 2006) masih blog lagi sekarang? To name a few.. *sebut dalam hati* X) Okeylah almost 10 years blogging woi. Agaknya saya sorang saja yang masih macam ni.. T_T

Semalam first time nangis tengok main bola. Filem Olabola. Orang rekemen tengok, yours truly pun tengoklah walaupun nda paham pun selama ni tentang game bola. Bukan bola kinda girl. In fact bukan jenis bersukan pon. Hahah k random. Sekian post paling pertama untuk tahun 2016 yang random dan pointless ini. Tidak apalah, blog saja pon. Why some people take things so serious, tulis blog main format itu ini. I can start and end my entry however I want. I can italic, bold, underline etc wherever I want. I can write whenever I want and whatever I want. Tulis sajalah setakat mana yang nak kongsi kan.. Entah diorang. Eh diorang pula disalahkan. Siapa entah. Bye baik ku tinggalkan tulisan ini nanti makin merepek HAHAHAHA.

Where do I begin.

Baru start menaip, tapi sudah mula rasa untuk berhenti. Seriously, where do I start? Nothing interesting. Hari ni baru rasa betul-betul free, dan esok pun free. Dan lusa belum tentu. Actually, sudah tentu mungkin. Ada kursus. So tak free dah. Free or tidak free ni? Ahhh entah malas pikir XD

[i]

Airasia freeseats.

Saya adalah kuchiwa. Sebab apa? Sebab route from Kota Kinabalu semua naik harga. No new route, and route sedia ada makin mahal somemore which is wtf?? Excuse me but within KL dan domestic (semenanjung) route lain boleh dapat RM10, then why la too expensive just to go to Sandakan? Iskk. And route BKI - KUL sekarang RM99? How come? Kalau macam tu promo bukan freeseat lagi murah T______T Oh well what do I know right. Terima sajalah. Stress. Tapi, tahun depan saya dah penuh dengan travel plan anyway so just wait untuk 2017 punya dulu lah. Stress for nothing.

[ii]

Tari Kirana.

Yes I'm bringing back what once was my passion. This 28th got another show at hotel in 1Borneo KK. Belum update lagi details Tari Kirana ke mc majlis tu since I still have lots of thing going on. We're hiring new dancers, we're going to set up our own bamboo orchestra (boleh ke??), we're planning on monthly or once every 2 months showcase around Ranau and Kota Kinabalu (macam busking diorang cakap - just jump anywhere, set up a bit and perform lol), booth for fund rising etc. We already got one showcase at Donggongon coming up on early December. We also going to collaborate with new restaurant in Ranau (start tahun depan jika tiada aral melintang) untuk show tiap malam waktu operasi.

[iii]

ALANAH's Home.

New penginapan coming up. Family's. Maybe will try to set up small office there for KundasangTrips. And lepas ni untuk budget package, boleh letak guest di situ. I think tahun depan baru fully operating.

[vii]

Little friends.

The kitties, Dom and Daisy membesar dengan sihat alhamdulillah. And kucing-kucing yang lain saya nak letak semua dalam sangkar dah. Dom and Daisy's big cage also I want to give to the cats outside. Including kucing yang liar-liar tuh. If I can umpan diorang masuk sangkar lah kan. Reason is, anjing-anjing liar selalu kacau/buli, dan makanan pun selalu anjing-anjing tu yang habiskan. Tu macam tidak cukup makan dah kucing-kucing ai T_______T

[vi]

Diet.

Diet! Haha rasa mau tampar diri sendiri. Hari tu elok dah turun dari 65KG ke 57KG. Pastu naik balik sebab lupa daratan ke 59.4KG like wtf? Sekarang ni 58KG dah tapi ya ampun, banyak dah masa terbuang. Konon target new year new body wakakakkk. Okey takpa sempat lagi nih :)

And all in all, 5 benda ni just few small things going on in my life right now. I have bigger issues and bigger responsibilities to cope with, at this very moment. It's just that I didn't choose to share all about it here. Bye, til meet again. Entah bila XD

I miss my blog. T___T

At least masih sedar yang diri ini punya blog so datanglah jugak kadang-kadang tulis benda merapik sini (asal ada muahahah). 

Tadi lepas kerja, plan siap dah nak pergi Segama di KK ni untuk beli barang penari. Yes tiba-tiba pulak minah ni mengajar menari balik kan. Kata hari  tu dah retire? Sebenarnya MEMANG dah retire, tapi lepas banyak kali dapat offer sebelum-sebelum ni, last-last ambil jugak offer ajar menari yang ini lepas terima ayat-ayat cinta lagi sayu dan menyayat hati dari mak (ugut pun ada jugak). 

So pergilah ai ke kedai lama dekat Segama yang jual macam-macam kostum untuk persembahan, TIN TIN ENTERPRISE. Dulu pun pernah ke sini beli barang tarian but that was years ago. Bertahun tak datang pastu ingat-ingat lupa lokasi. But jumpa jugak. Memang agak tersembunyi sikit. Saya tidak tahu kedai lain yang jual barang-barang yang kedai ni jual, so memang pergi sini sajalah. 

 RM12.90 price untuk sepasang (2 kipas). Semua colour pink. Colour lain macam hijau, biru gelap, kuning, merah pun ada tapi ni menarik sikit warna dia. So pilih yang ni.

Pastu pergi beli makanan gerai-gerai bazar bawah jejantas tu. Nak nangis dapat harga murah. Hinava setengah plastik dapat RM2 saja. Ni yang buat terharu nih. Come one, siapa jual hinava murah camni? Atau saya sorang saja yang rasa murah? LOL.

Hinava is one of the most popular of the traditional dishes of the Kadazan-Dusun, the largest ethnic group in Malaysia. It is a traditional salad of this culture made with pieces of raw fish mixed with lime juice, ginger, red onion, bird’s eye chili, bitter gourd and shallot. Preparation for this dish is fairly simple. The fish will not be cooked with a flame but with the lime juice instead, so all raw materials must be washed beforehand.

Sadly, muka sekarang adalah seperti mak .. okey upgrade sikitlah. KAK LAMPIR. Rambut kusut masai, mandi nda dari pagi (ya ko sorang saja wangi orang lain semua busuk kan (- -'), makan nda sempat rasa macam dua hari suda tidak makan, kain terbengkalai, Dom dan Daisy masih menunggu masa untuk dimandikan. Dengan berbulu mata tengok dua orang sibling sebelah bilik tu tengah bersiap buat recording baru. Berbulu woi. Tapi berbulu pun tapi buat hari ini adalah tidak berminat berbuat apa selain menselesaikan kerja yang ada ni.

Habislah ini malam kena gunting rambut time tidur sebab pos ini gambar :P

All of us the 5 sibling semua memang suka menyanyi (merdu tidak merdu belakang kira). Cuma yang adik lelaki sorang di belakang tu lain sikit. Suka compose lagu + his friends ada yang buat lagu. For fun. Macam underground-underground gitu. Agaknya. Tapi yang sengalnya sebab tak pernah ajak pula kami merekod dengan dia kann HAHAHA. Ceritanya tiba-tiba adik perempuan ni merekod lagu, sebab dulu pernah jadi background singer salah satu lagu diorang buat. Then bila siap, diorang tertarik dengan suara dia ni. So cipta lagi untuk suruh budak ni nyanyi. Hah. Free-free orang buatkan lagu. 

Tapi ko tak dengar lagi suara ai. Nangis 44 hari kau. Sebab merdu yang hamat. Ada ONG. Masalahnya bukan ong as in Chinese. Tapi ong lain. Ong apa? Ong Ong as in bunyi katak. Wakakakkk!

Dom dan Daisy. Perasan tidak saya ada sebut tadi? Ni new kitten adopted, nama canggih sikit kali ni. Yang jantan Dominique (sebab I suka tengok french bf Michelle Phan nama Dominique tuh) pastu yang betina nama Daisybella sebab I suka bunga daisy. Gambar nanti say pos sini, sebab malas rasa mengtransfer gambar-gambar sekarang ni. Sempat transfer gambar atas ni saja. Lepas tu malas. Okey yang ni memang malas buat masa sekarang. Tapi buat kerja lain ai rajin. X)

Actually by the time I'm writing this post, my work di laptop already done 100% after 2 days. Time to shake it shake it bersihkan bilik, cuci kain yang tidak berapa melonggok (kali ini) itu, isi perut, bagi kucing makan, MANDI T_T etc. Terlanjur merendam kain, terpaksa cuci juga. Kalau tidak, 3-4 minggu baru basuh kain HAHAH.

Alright! Nanti ai datang merepek-repek lagi. Bye. ;)

March rasa sangat cepat berlalu sebab sibuk sangat-sangat. Hari ni baru ada masa sikit untuk sit down dan sort back all the emails and whatsapps berkaitan business. Tapi belum cover semua. Ada half of them masih belum sempat. Padahal tadi rasa dah reply banyak sangat. Yet, alhamdullillah rezeki.

7 hari lagi untuk next trip tapi diri ini sesungguhnya masih occupied dengan macam-macam benda. RISAU. Bukan risau travel sorang, tapi risau if berjalan tapi banyak benda belum setel. So kena setelkan dulu semua sampai puas hati, lepas tu off 11 days HAHAHA amboi gurau kasar nampak. Tapi hakikatnya memang akan bercuti 11 hari tanpa gagal. Nasib baik every now and then bila free mesti take time plan my itinerary and bookings, so tidaklah kelam kabut sangat. Itinerary dah plan, cuma perlu buat sedikit lagi rujukan di google. Kali ni tidak perlu plan sangat. Just ikut flow. Taknak stress-stress.

Time sibuk-sibuk time bulan Mac lah all my outdoor cats diserang selesema. Semua pakat bersih-bersin, lumba hingus siapa paling letup-letup, belon hingus siapa paling besar, mata merah dan berair. Pendek kata, kena infection. 12 ekor tidak silap. Yang liar-liar tu saya kira agak-agak saja. Hari ni hari ketiga saya buat treatment. Antibiotik, ubat batuk dan multivitamin. Getting better, tapi masih bersin. Ada some of them baru keluar hari ni, so baru dapat bagi treatment. Yang treatment sejak hari pertama dah semakin sihat, hingus dan bersin-bersin dah tiada, mata saja mungkin ada sedikit masih berair dan masih lembk-lembik lagi sikit. Hari ni baru saya sendiri makan dengan proper sikit. Hilang selera tengok kucing sakit. Asyik ingat diorang saja. T__T 9 ekor pula indoor alhamdulillah sihat. Lagi 2 ekor kuarantin dalam rumah sebab masih anak-anak lagi. Simpan dalam cage bagi diorang warm, tiap hari bagi ubat. Baru sebulan tapi terpaksa asingkan dari their mum sebab their mum pun hingus letup-letup. Maksudnya, saya kena gantikan tugas their mum. Bagi susu (saya bancuh susu kambing dan bagi through picagari), keep them warm, dan bersihkan diorang. Me and Dana berpengalaman jaga anak kucing baru lahir tiada ibu, so no problem so far. Masalah cuma if anak kucing tu sakit, which is now, 2 of them so I dunno if they'll survive T_____T

Pelihara kucing dan hidup bergelumang dengan kucing sejak kecil lagi. Tapi baru ni konon jaga kebajikan rakyat-rakyat lebih dari jaga sebelum ni. Makin lembut hati. Dulu jaga gitu-gitu saja. Tidak dapat jadi doktor, jadi doktor untuk kucing-kucing pun bolehlah. I will do my best. Will always do. :)

Another thing about cats. Hujung Mac adalah cubaan pertama menggunakan cat litter jenis crystal. So far I am happy, sebab tidak busuk and senang nak urus. Sesuailah untuk yang sibuk macam saya. Dengan kesibukan kerja yang tidak menentu ini.

Mac banyak sangat benda first time buat,

tapi sayangnya tidak dapat record dari segi tulisan.

Teringin review movies my husband and I went to (kami kaki movie), kadang-kadang in 1 day marathon tengok wayang kalau kebetulan turun Kota Kinabalu dan banyak masa free. Biasanya buat after urus big group tour untuk lepas penat.

Dan kadang-kadang mau juga review hotels yang both me and husband pernah pergi (kami suka try hotel/penginapan). Dari yang bajet tahap tidak-faham-kenapa-hotel-ini-masih-wujud sampailah ke 1 2 3 4 star. 5 star belum berpeluang lagi tapi ada rezeki, maybe try di Indonesia or Thailand saja sebab 5 star sana murah heheh. Memang membazir, tapi inilah hobi pelik kami. But still berbaloi sebab biasanya hanya book if memang betul-betul murah. RM135 4 star hotel in Kota Kinabalu with decent variety of buffet breakfast, contohnya. Or less than that. I don't know why I always find good deals HAHAHA. We have our own fav budget hotel, fav 1, 3 and 4 star hotel. I wish to review them someday.

I took lots of pictures too, since I've bought smaller camera (compare dengan my DSLR) and smaller  means I always bring it with me. It means more pictures. Tapi satu lagi, kemalasan mentransfer, apa cer? Serupa tak ada. Hahah. K annoying.

And tu belum masuk hutang-hutang entri yang masih dalam draft. Seriously berlambak. See. Banyak sangat-sangat benda boleh tulis sebenarnya, but again, my life is way too occupied! Ingatkan April ada releks sikit, tapi rezeki alhamdulilla, so mehlah kita bekerja sampai lebam. Kata nak berjalan kan? Heheh.

Baiklah I need to go. Sorry no pictures. Let's just read me. Thank you :)

Assalamualaikum oh my goat ya ampun amma appa yennadeyy lamanya tidak update blog? Hilang ke mana? Bertapa gua mana? 28hb hari ni barulah lapang sikit dada dapat rehat elok-elok. For the last few weeks terkejar-kejar ke sana ke mari. Kalau tidak terkejar-kejar, topup pun tidak terbeli tau ahakkk.. But alhamdulillah, kerja penat tapi tidak stress. yang stressnya sebab kurang masa. Yang stressnya pulang rumah masih banyak nak buat tapi badan say NO. Tapi paksa juga sampai siap pastu baring few second saja dah zzzzz. Kadang-kadang belum buat apa-apa lagi dah gedebuk tertidur atas lantai *exaggerate*

Now still dekat hotel, extend until tomorrow before balik rumah. Sebab diri ini terasa sangat fenat. Maunya pengen tidur seharian tapi oh tidak, jap lagi keluar nak tukar tayar kereta pula. So, ni just short update of what I've been doing lately. Cannot wait til April! Bye.

Alamak again, I forgot I own a blog! Bila ingat sesuatu berkaitan blog, baru ingat mau update which is, eh dah berapa hari tidak update ni. Cakap saja lebih, buat? Hmph!

Already 3.24AM, tapi masih berjaga. Mengantuk tapi I cannot rest til I finish all these works. Unless tertidur la hahah. Things have been a little bit messy here. Messy, as in LITERALLY messy haha. Me and Dana (currently cuti sem) jadikan bilik kami hospital tempat merawat kucing-kucing yang kena jangkitan. So far the cats getting better, but still makan if sentuh sikit saja memang terpaksa kena forcefeed. Just bayang all the picagaris (of course without jarumlah), tissues, blankets, kotaks, litter box, etc. These two weeks so painful bila we have to witness our kittens satu-satu mati sebab sakit. We've tried our best, but I guess, maybe we haven't try enough. Kecewa dengan diri sendiri. Sometimes I cry at night mengenangkan those kittens.. And some of them are so close to me. Jujur, saya tidak suka rasa kehilangan. I'm very bad at handling that kind of feeling before, and even though now dah belajar bersabar sesabar-sabarnya, still, sedih tetap ada. I love cats. And will always love cats. Tidak faham, tidak apa.

Tengah malam tadi sanggup okey keluar tengah malam, beli makanan dan pasir kucing. Polis buat checking tengah malam di jalan raya kawasan tapak tamu, which is, terdetik dalam hati, must be something happen at Semporna/Tawau. Kereta kami pun ditahan, suluh sana sini dalam kereta (dalam kereta kosong saja, yang ada hanya me and Dana) lepas tu tanya dari mana dan hendak ke mana. Jalan lengang, no cars. With so many polis berjaga. A bit weird. Well.

Anyway.

I decide to bring back 'sufilara' to life again, but, as what? - I'm not sure yet. Might be as a branding.. Okey dalam otak sebenarnya memang ini. As a branding. Tapi kena fikir betul-betullah sesuai atau tidak. Dulu saya guna nama Sufilara before Fina Sophie (walaupun FS come first actually hahaaa) that's why my primary email is sufilara, not fina sophie. We'll see nanti. Insya-Allah.

Lama pula duduk menulis nih. Should continue my work and get a rest afterwards. Byeee :)

Seems like all my scheduled entry semua dah publish dekat blog without me have the time to schedule another new entries. Been away for days, laptop pon tidak bawa. Nak bawa pun berfikir tau sebab besar. Maybe it's time for me to buy a tablet. Tapi tetap, without an attached keyboard, tetap ngerasa gak lengkap gitew. So meh lah kita coba-coba belajar untuk menselesakan diri menaip dalam handset as Samsung Note punya actually dah cukup besar untuk entry setakat 2-3 perenggan. Oh?? Dalam instagram kau boleh karang panjang-panjang siap post gambar tapi blog yang kau bela dari 2006 ni kau rasa berat pulak. Monolog sendiri. Pedulikan orang gila ini.

One of my wishlist (to-buy list) for this year, eh dah tercapai. Alhamdulillah. Dapat dengan cara paling cheapskate. The reason I went to Keningau last time. Sebenarnya dah lama start survey-survey tapi belum ada dalam kepala otak nak beli dalam waktu terdekat ni. Mula-mula tercari-cari juga sebenarnya apa yang sesuai. Salah satu kriteria nak yang wide angle, tapi 25MM lens ke bawah semua dah start mahal. Terlalu banyak kamera dalam pasaran, terus menjadi buntu dan malas fikir haha.. Lepas tu kenal satu blogger ni suka tengok gambar dalam blog dia. Dapat tahu, the lens is 23MM new set now 1.2K ke bawah. Mula-mula keluar dulu tidak silap 1.8K. Then the same model secondhand punya saya jumpa yang dekat Selangor. RM650 and paling kurang pun RM600. Lepas tu nak rush. Saya tidak gemar rush-rush if beli barang ni sebab mesti silap beli. Mula-mula memang nak confirm. Tapi at second thought, saya decide untuk try cari dekat Sabah saja, around here, supaya senang COD saja. Bila cari-cari dekat GAKEPS, eh, ada yang jual. Nego punya nego dapat RM500. Tu pun saya masih fikir lagi sebenarnya. Apapun, proses urusan jual beli digital kamera yang agak singkat tapi alhamdulillah puas hati. COD so boleh belek-belek sampai muntah.

Lepas ni nak kena fikir ganti duit untuk kecederaan XD

A lot of things going on right now but I guess for tonight kena batalkan niat taip panjang-panjang. Sekarang ni pun dah rasa mengantuk gila-gila. Few days spent on the road. Tidur lewat, bangun awal. Now that I'm home, semua penat tu datang sekaligus. Even waktu drive pulang dari Kota Kinabalu kena tahan juga mengantuk tu. Take five di Pekan Nabalu. End up dekat sejam dekat sana sebab konon nak take time bagi badan segar bugar. Pusing-pusing pergi look out point berhampiran dan kemudian start balik enjin kereta sambung balik perjalanan til sampai rumah. Sampai rumah dengar suara Dana nyanyi lagu Adele - Someone Like You ; if I'm not mistaken. Lantas join the siblings menyanyi-nyanyi. Pipie main Adi's new electric guitar. Kili already set up a room months ago untuk aktiviti macam tu, dengan his PA systems, computers dan external hardisk (karaoke 50K lagu okey). Microphone pun yang bunyi sedap tu. Apa lagi kan, aku ni dah feeling-feeling retis time tu padahal mengantuk. Ngamlah kan. Dana as vocalist, me as latar suara wakakakkk, Adi with his instruments, Pipie main guitar, Kili set up a studio.

Malam ni setelkan receipt payment (ada guest buat payment petang tadi) dan buat quotation setakat yang sempat. Sebab nak cuci kain dan kemas bilik. Want to sleep early tonight X[

As you all know, aku memang tulis broken English dekat blog. And I speak next to zero English because I have problem with my tongue muahaha and please don't put me down by condemning me, just because you have really great English, it doesn't make you better than me. (saying this because I received an email saying that my english made him/her ...speechless XD). I am not acting as a COOL person konon-konon urban, am just trying my best. None of my family can speak good English, yet, I was a bit lucky since, of all subjects in school, when almost all my friends loath it, English Language class was apparently my favorite subject (of all things!).

Anyway.

I know complained almost all the time in blog but looking back, I actually have achieved quite so many things in just one year. Maybe banyak benda buat that's why the stress is different haha. Kalau cakap pasal travel, tahun depan dan depan slow down sebab I have another big target for next year. Lagipun tarikh bercuti 2 years ahead (2015 dan 2016) dah ada lol awal kan. Biasalah early birds.

Tapi apa target tahun depan tu, itu cerita untuk hujung tahun depanlah.

As for work, I still need more time. Satu tahun beroperasi masih terlalu muda, but the beginning is quite good. The rest is for next year plan. Alhamdulillah I can pay my bills, fund my trips, buy my wishlists, dan bayar PTPTN habis by 2 years to come (saya start bayar lambat *embarrassed*) but hey at least bayar kan?

Cerita lain, tiada apa sangat. Yes I am sad for all the horrible things happened to me this year, but nevertheless, I am still excited for few things coming up, but let's keep that as a secret for now. Macam biasalah, nanti if dah selesai or dah dapat, adalah ceritanya di sini. As for now, tiada apa yang pasti lagi. Mengharap sangat tu tidak, tapi sekurang-kurangnya usaha itu ada kan. No matter how down I might feel, I'll keep going on. Sorry for my posts sekarang ni, all are too sombre I think. Haha.

Okey. Word of the day. SOMBRE.

I have 15 minutes to ramble here til 12AM but entahlah malam makin larut, otak pun dah tak berfungsi dengan betul (sejak bila otak kau berfungsi dengan betul entahlah Fina). All I want to do for tonight 12AM onwards tunggu link download latest episode Runningman keluar tapi belum keluar-keluar lagi so I guess siang nanti sajalah.

12.15AM :

Sekarang dah masuk 30 Disember, can't believe time flies so fast dan tidak lama lagi masuk tahun 2015. Balik lagi ke 1 Januari. How sometimes we didn't want to let go, but eventually we have to. As I'm getting older, sometimes I feel like I want to stop the time. I want to achieve so many things, do so many things, but at the same time, I want to stop the ticking clock. Hahaha. Don't know why. Another year passed, sedia atau tidak, now we have to welcome 2015. *sigh* I hope my night skies in 2015 won't be sombre and starless anymore. Today will be the last Tuesday for 2014. Goodbye Tuesday 2014. Tomorrow I'll be seeing the last Wednesday of 2014. As for 2014's Thursday, Friday, until yesterday Monday, you'll all be in history. 

*silence*

 

So, stop sini dululah. Ada banyak lagi masa lain untuk share all rubbish thoughts of mine XD Bye good night :)

1.07AM

 Then I can be a lawyer one ah?

I wonder what a man of 27 might be doing in 1880? *smirk*

I am supposed to update more about Sister's Trip but, pulang dari Indonesia tempoh hari saya perasan all my notes about previous trip along with my notes (and lots of them because I simply love papers and pens haha) were all gone. MIA. Missing in agony. Lol. Because there's a slightest agony in my heart. Macamana nak keep the record with all those notes went missing! Boleh menggelupur I sebab I lost all of them. Checked here and there in this little home, later I go back home in Ranau I cari lagi. Balik hari tu actually ada cari, tapi tidak jumpa. Since I was in a hurry, maybe ada tempat lupa nak tengok. Weird, since I bukan jenis letak barang merata-rata. And if I know I masih perlu those notes, biasa I tak hantar balik rumah. Weird, really. But ya for now we leave it that way..... ? *unfinishedbusiness*

Selain video yang ini, by now I have one more video to show you (now uploading in youtube). Taken using SJ4000 yang kecil (besar cuma 3 fingers if not, my two fat fingers haha) dan senang bawa. Niat sebenar waktu ambil afll those videos are, later on kunun mau screenshot saja dan up gambar-gambar screenshot itud ke blog macam biasa but now since I am too lazy to do that, I downloaded software Movie Maker (sebab senang guna) dan edit, upload pergi youtube dan paste code di blog. I find it easier and faster, and fun too. Ah great. Now you got to hear my weird voice datang dari entah planet mana. T__T

Ok bagi masa menaip untuk next entry. Sorry untuk Sisters trip lepas ni saya tulis budgeting per day/activity/entry setakat apa yang saya ingatlah. Atau boleh cek sini untuk jumlah kerugian secara menyeluruh.

Looking back, macam biasa part makan dan part shopping agak over sikit. Masalahnya yang part shopping tu bukan beli sangat untuk diri sendiri pun. Untuk souvenirs saja. Hahah. Lepas ni, I akan tolak sebarang aktiviti kirim mengirim unless if I was given enough money, unless it was my own will, or unless benda senang cari, or unless it was one week before. Tidak pun, jalan senyap-senyap not telling anyone. lol. I feel so sorry but next time saya kena buat macam ni untuk avoid kesusahan pada waktu kejadian. A lesson learnt. Really. I thought I am a shopaholic, but maybe shopping for others is not my kind of thing.. Haven't had the time to look for mine. lol. Regret.

Gotta go.

Actually ni bukan perkara luar biasa, tapi saja nak bagitau minyak masak kami dah jadik butter!! Haha taklah tapi dah kebekuan minyak tu sebab cuaca di Kundasang. It's been raining for days, if baju kering pun sempat jemur sekejap saja lepas tu hujan. Makcik jiran sebelah dah membebel-bebel dah cakap malas angkat kain kejap hujan kejap berhenti jemur balik then tidak lama pastu hujan balik. Senyum sajalah, memang betul pun. Penat kot! Lagi-lagi kalau ada banyak kerja lain mau buat.

Please dear self update laju-laju Sister's trip, dah berkurun! Been more than 4 months already tapi belum habis-habis argghh.. Baik, up next entry mesti start habiskan til HABIS. kbye.

Mesti bosan kan masuk blog ni terlalu perempuan sangat. Sana sini pink, tidak cukup dengan itu ada signboard I believe in pink pulak. Hambik kau. Mood malam ni rasa nak tukar warna. Warna yang tidak pernah diminati, baju pun tiada kaler hijau because green makes you fat!*feeling Kareena Kapoor dalam Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham*. Warna sebelum ni code #CD8C95. Macam biasalah ikut mood. Esok-esok mungkin warna lain. Minggu depan tukar perabot lagi. Tahun depan tukar domain pulak. 5 minit lepas tu mungkin blog dah tak wujud ehhh gurau kasar nampak.

No point pun post ni. Don't you know I am a queen of NO POINT? Ahahah! Entri blog awal-awal berblog ala-ala macam ni lah. Sudahlah singkat lepas tu entah apa kau membebel sana syok sendiri. Dah memang tulis blog style syok sendiri. Buat lawak sendiri ketawa. Pasang lagu di blog pastu sendiri play padahal boleh dengar mp3 lagu yang sama dah save dalam laptop, lol *not laughing*. (baca : lol)

As for my travelogue, I wanna take my ownnnn sweeeettt timeeee to finally start writing. Tapi tidaklah lama sangat. Sekejap lagi. Sekejappp lagi. Tapi entahlah macamana terma dan syarat untuk 'sekejap lagi' si Fina ni kan. Ahahah! Baik, I have to go. Bye.

Ceh. Takdalah. 18hb I rush early morning to Kota Kinabalu with adik (dia temankan) for meeting at Ocean Seafood Village (later on pindah ke Promenade) tentang trip naik gunung Kinabalu end of Novoember for 50 pax. The same day orang call nak tour 2D1N ke Kundasang, pick up us NOW katanya. Since we're free (not me, but we got empty slot for that day), so husband pick them up terus. Pergi Toyota bayarkan mother's CCM and shoot back to Ranau. Adik temankan semata-mata untuk drive area bandar. Start dari Kundasang ke Tamparuli dan Tamparuli ke Ranau I yang drive, dia tidur. Nak jadi burung hantu sangat, macam tu lah. Syukur jugalah ada yang nak tolong kan. Kalau sorang-sorang? Haha. Hari ni slow down sikit dan esok busy lagi balik. Dan seterusnya dan seterusnya.. 

Before meeting seminggu juga sakit kepala. Begitulah bila kita kena present something walaupun I don't have anything to present since kuasa bukan di tangan I. Susah nak cakap lol but alhamdulillah everything went well. Thank so much to my friend yang tidak pernah jumpa ; Yunie. Thanks! You helped me a lot!

Talk about meeting. I don't do meeting since long ago. I guess my last meeting was with Tari Kirana. And those meeting-sampai-muntah days (as Fiza put it) while we're in JPM. Dear JPM sister, paperwork and meeting and bilik JPM and office? Remember? During my 2009 - 2010 penuh dengan entri yang ada perkataan 'malam ni meeting', 'meeting jap g', ' malas g meeting'. XD But anyhow, I really am jakun at things I dah lama tak buat hampir-hampir tak tahu meting tu apa. So, LET ME! *exaggerate* Hahaha. Eee.. Bikin panas juga entri ni kan.

Makin hari dekat dengan masa nak berjalan ni terus rasa macam malas.. melankoli.. angan-angan.. khayal.. terawang-awang.. Semua gara-gara membayangkan yang indah-indah belaka sepanjang our 10 days trip to Indonesia and transit di KL 3 days. Booked almost everything tapi packing belum. Tapi nak packing macamanakah sekarang berada di rumah mentua. Atau perlukah aku pulang ke rumah esok dan angkut apa yang boleh di angkut.. Bosan-bosan di rumah boleh belek dan packing-packing secara slow motion.

Jom berehat bersama kitkat (iklan tidak berbayar). Penat tulis entry berjalan-jalan ni. Rehat sekejap. Mari bicara santai-santai.

Tadi saya baca-baca posts pada salah satu bulan pada tahun 2009 lama dahulu. Nak baca semua satu-satu tak larat la pula sebab blogging since 2006 hm.. Almost 1.5K posts. Old post from SUFILARA I import masuk dalam SOPHIESM. Looking back, banyak juga aku tulis pasal Si Ai En Ti A kan. Cakap macam I know everything about LOVE. Dan sebenarnya CINTA di alam perkahwinan adalah lebih dari itu. Lebih complicated. Entri merepek-repek aku baca rasa macam nak menangis. Menangis bukan rasa tersentuh, tapi nak menangis kerana merasa annoyed. Amboi kau dulu Fina.. (- -')

Tapi it's okey, saya memang macam tu. Itulah saya yang dulu dan tidak terniat dalam hati nak ubah walau sedikitpun. Sekarang pun masih macam tu, biasalah hati tisu setisu tisunya. Dahlah tisu, taman pulak tu. Taman bunga matahari. Taman bunga daisi. Kalerpul.

 Foooinee this aren't daisies but it give daisies' feeling with that kind of kelopak hehehe.

Most of my time nowadays I only spend at home being so domestic. Every morning I woke up early, bersiap, masak for sarapan, buka tingkap dan pintu rumah yang menghadap Gunung Kinabalu luas-luas (because I love cahaya dan natural scent since awal pagi), kemas rumah, every two days bergantung pada cuaca I basuh kain awal pagi dan jemur, sapu dan mop dan lap-lap dan spray pewangi di rumah/bedroom and then baru mandi. Lepas tu buka laptop dan sambung buat kerja. Husband keluar kerja 6.30AM - until malam. Kadang-kadang pulang tengahari and that's the only time I masak for lunch. If husband tak pulang saya tak masak lunch. Tapi dinner memang masaklah. So after dinner, I kemas our kitchenette dan jot down to do list dan sarapan untuk next day punya. Lepas tu sambung buat kerja (dekat laptop) dan biasa antara 11PM-2PM saya masuk tidur selagi saya masih tahan mengantuk. Kalau penat buat kerja tapi belum mengantuk, saya layan runningman haha tapi jaranglah. Biasa lepas buat kerja kepala mula berdenyut-denyut maka insaf dan buat keputusan untu masuk tidur. Habit cium tangan suami before masuk tidur. Dan macam tu lah setiap hari jika di rumah saja. Nampak macam simple tapi for your info kadang-kadang di penghujung hari, kena melawan sakit dan pening kepala.. Hmm.. T_T

Runningman I terlepas 3 episods walaupun dah download tapi belum tengok-tengok lagi since download hari tu. Maunya santai-santai nonton runningman gitu waktu hati lagi seneng deh. Kagak ada pusing-pusing kepalanya. Erk. Ahhh sudah. Praktis speaking indonesia tapi ayat macam pelik.

My travel business is still going, new plan ahead and buka pakej untuk mendaki gunung pula dan banyak lagi yang baru. Masih mencuba and while everyone komen about the risk I'm taking, I say, what the hell. I will try everything I want to try. If it doesn't work, I still have the experience and people learn from mistake. If I make good money out of it, muka tu juga yang mengendeng. I mengaku I bukan always positive but when you're being positive and you know the base and you know what you're doing and you're about to go, do you like people to kill everything? No, right. And if ada masalah sikit people say this won't work, just drop it.. When clearly it can be solved. I don't buy this kind of mentality. 

Lagi? Lagi?

Okey dalam family group sekarang sebut-sebut pasal chicken chop di Hutan Bandar Bistro di Johor Bahru yang RM5 saja tu. Adoi. Mau buat chicken chop pun sekarang tidak cukup bahan. Malam ni plan makan nasi menu simple tapi tidak tau lagi apa. Tengok apa yang adalah. Ada bahan-bahan stok tinggal sikit sudah ni. Beras, sayur, ayam, dan apa-apa lagi yang berkaitan Aiseh cakap macamlah tulis dalam blog barang-barang yang tiada tiba-tiba boleh tinggg! Jadi ada. Haha.. Esok masa untuk shopping moping. Lepas ni capai note dan list apa semua yang mau beli XD But I requested husband tadi belikan daging burger dan kobis (lain-lain bahan sudah ada) kerana selera malam ni adalah feeling-feeling western. Ini semua adalah gara-gara chicken chop! Salahkan ayam pulak. Tapi buat simple saja, nanti kita tengok outcome.

Sambil tengok AF malam ni dinner nasi lauk simple dan main dish is burger ayam (actually sandwich kot sebab guna roti bread haha) dan keropok. Emm.. Hancur diet :P

We are both so excited to jelajah Indonesia starting end of this month. Ya Allah, permudahkan perjalanan kami. That's why sekarang saya bertungkus lumus siapkan entry waktu saya dan Dana ke jalan-jalan di Langkawi dan Selatan Thailand hari tu. So far Day 3 dah siap (daily auto-publish) dan Day 4 bakal ku habiskan malam ini atau esok insya-Allah dan will only be published on 17th Sept. Sebab entri esok dan lusa dah siap. Semalam pulun buat 3 entri sekaligus. 

Okey nak start masak dah. Later ;)

Bling!

Helo my dear drugs, how are you doing? I wish to feed myself with drugs today.

Okey dah. Main drags drugs drigs pulak dah. I'm just joking. I call my blog as my drugs sometimes don't you knoww.. Because this is one of those things that make me happy, from deep within. :) Am not gonna talk much but today I might flood your dashboard with interesting pictures (at least for me) I saved from various sites, for every hour haha.. It's end of the month, time to clean up everything in my lappy. Here goes.. Quotes about travel.

I am sure ramai juga yang tengah cari ni so this might help. ;)

 

Innerself thoughts.

Diakui, being a housewife yang bekerja dari rumah kedengaran agak membosankan. Lagi nampak bosan kalau jarang dapat pegang kereta.. Jarang jalan-jalan.. Jarang jumpa orang.. Pendek kata ; No friends. Macamana orang boleh hidup macam ni? -----

Haha. Sayalah tu. Tak perlu guna sudut pandangan orang ketiga. Sebenarnya memang tengah cakap pasal diri sendiri. Kesiannya. Sila beri markah pada perempuan ni. Markah tahap kasihan.

I guess have less friends here not because I can't have friends. It's because I choose not to have anyone too close. Dalam hidup aku belajar, kita hanya akan terluka bila kita terlalu rapat dengan seseorang. I don't have much luck in friendship you know. I've had a friendship that betrayed with my loved one years years years ago. The pain is the sickest I have ever feel.. I've had a friendship that talked behind my back - sangat manis di depan di belakang menyalak-nyalak. I've had a friendship that turned into love but unfortunately it's only one sided because I never felt that way to him - dan persahabatan itu hancur lebur dan aku tidak mampu langsung pandang wajah dia lagi. Because seeing him that way confused me. I've had a friendship that almost turn to love but again, it fall apart. I think 2010 is my last huha with friends. Now the friends I wanna keep is the friends I still have now in my life. Other than that, it's all about awkwardness and cerita biasa-biasa. My hearts almost shuts down to a thing called new friendship mungkin hahaha.

Maybe I am wrong but I learn life the hardest way. My life is not as smooth as you so shut up tau..

My everyday life randomly consist of online customers, google, our room, household chores, husband, family, and myself. Dan punya sedikit-sedikit peluang untuk melihat dunia. Tidak banyak, sedikit demi sedikit itu cukup. I dreamt of having more than this. I dreamt of having a life better than this. But at the end of that every thought, I believe what I have now is enough. Untuk apa yang saya ada sekarang ni pun I masih struggle untuk do well, macamana bila dah ada lebih banyak? Rezeki Allah akan datang bila sampai masanya.

Entri ni lebih kepada pujuk hati sendiri sebenarnya. To kill the time. To kill the emptiness. To make full use of my monthly paid broadband. To at least adalah juga cerita dalam blog ni. It's a good thing right sebab sekarang ni dah kira rajin update. Hee. Maybe tak dapatlah macam dulu hari-hari update but at least dalam seminggu, insya-Allah I will try. Baik enough blabbering, jom tidur. Byee..

Published.

Dear C.

Let's just make this clear. Can we?

As this might be our last night together, I wish you all the best and may your new love treat you well more than I ever do. I remember how lonely you look like; sitting there watching me from afar but at the same time I see a heart desired a different life - a lively one. Aren't you? I watched you too, when you're not looking. And only turned away as my tears starts flowing because that's the moment I realize I do not own your heart *bitter smile* Thing is, I am a girl who is not competent enough to be with you. Having you is never a mistake - it's not you. But it's me. A girl nobody wants, and at the same time, wants nobody. You've done your best - as always (I guess it's in your blood all your family are the best). Cheer up, you might have the chance to go abroad again. Around the world.. Or at least farther than where we've been.

NOW.

You'll got to see the world more than when you're with me now. You'll got to witness all the amazing scenes more often than when you're with me, soon enough. I will never forget our memories in Singapore. Although we've got our next beach destination is Krabi in Thailand and Bali in Indonesia - I guess we won't make it that far. I wish I could spend more years with you just as what I thought we'll be the day we set our eyes and heart at each other for the first time. But I feel that we're too ---- I can't ---- We just can't ----

---------------- be together.

Don't hate me for this. Remember you told me to always be happy no matter what happened in my life?  Remember I told you I'd rather let you go knowing your happiness will never be me? Of course we literally do not talk to each other in fact we speak different language, but deep down, we always do. Can you still understand me today?

Because you have to :'(

*****************

Really nana? *expressionless*
Aren't you too carried away right now? ; monolog diri sendiri.

Kahkah. It's just me being dramaticlahsangat. Macam lama tidak tulis begini-begini dalam blog so sekali sekala apa salahnya. Sorry for wasting 3 minutes of your life reading these. But it never a waste for me as I am love-letter expert (told you i write since i was a kid) and this is ONE OF the little thing I enjoy most apart from sleeping when it's raining outside is to WRITE CRAPPY JIWANG STORIES that come true from heart. Sayalah kanak-kanak yang jiwang itu T_____T

Seriously. I don't know if I am serious. I am just saying.

Fikir balik.

Betul-betul nak jual dan ganti baru??

I took a lot of time searching over the internet that fits around my budget because I know very little about DSLR market. Searching and comparing and I put a lot of thought about buying it. It's pricey. I used the whole of my 1 month salary plus few of my saving, and it's DSLR crazy! Somehow it gets really sentimental because I worked hard for this.

To be honest, I do not know how to use DSLR manually and always opt to Auto mode. To own a DSLR is a form of satisfaction. Because I got to take good pictures. It's funny right - spending almost RM2K just for the satisfactions heh. I am indeed a girl who appreciates moments and memories. If I am not, I do not even start a diary or even a blog. I do not show much of this side of me, but I am sooo into DSLR since those days with Tari Kirana (https://www.facebook.com/lovebytarikirana). It's like an obsession. But one thing I forgot to consider is, it's PORTABILITY. Ouch. That matter much, especially when I am traveling. Hari tu pergi Singapore (JB + USS Trip), rasakan (- -") Why I love this camera? The main reason is because it takes high quality pictures. Dan high quality tu bukan sebab pixel semata-mata. Tapi pungpangpuangpang all the DSLR's terms and functions I tak familiar sangat tapi tahulah sikit-sikit.

So for now, the arguments are ;

• I could get a high-end compact camera at it's selling price
• I can't have two at the same time. I am not allowed to have both. I wish I can have both but I am not a professional photographer - in fact, I am not a photographer, to start with
• Honestly, DSLR is big and bulky while compact cameras is .. well, compact
• I think I will end up not using this camera much because I want less weight when I am traveling (- -')

But again I need to mention again about the high quality image and the sentimental value it have. Hm.

What's next? Buat masa ni masih timbang-timbang lagi. Kalau jadi, I kena cari buyer dan deal, lepas tu cash ada baru boleh sambung cerita. Cari model camera apa dan macamana yang saya nak dan buat comparison, lepas tu hunt it down. And I have two months for that. Rasanya 3 bulan dari sekarang boleh tahu dah jadi atau tidak jual, dan if jadi apa model kamera I pilih. 3 bulan lepas ni tau. Hahaha.

Ahhh I is melt!

Melt already

Catch up soon!