So kita dah lebih halfway 2015 ni, and I didn't write as often here contrary to what I promised before. Sorry. But life's been too crappy, it's not worth writing. I don't want to remember them all either, so what the hell. Despite it all, minggu ini ai adalah produktif yeay! Been ages since I want to finish it, and in two days...

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December is going to end soon. As much as I am excited being in my favorite month, I find that I actually can't wait for the new year to begin. Another new year, another new refreshment, new stories and new dramas with funny people? Badut yang tidak berpakaian badut walking around? I can't wait, really. I received a text last night. Seems like...

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Hai.. Inilah boyfriend I yang pertama HAHA. His name is Nick. Jambu tak? Gambar ni memang real. Dan saya sendiri masih simpan lagi dalam album gambar yang dah lama saya tak jenguk. Dia bagi waktu kami sama-sama darjah 6 HAHA. Mak aih sekolah rendah lagi dah bercinta rupanyaa. Lagu yang mengingatkan saya pada dia. Nick teman lelaki pertama saya. Very the puppy love....

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Tekalah saya terserempak dengan siapa semalam? Semalam, saya ke KFC. Berbuka puasa untuk puasa ganti terakhir di KFC dengan seorang teman. Dan selepas kami selesai makan dan turun dari tingkat atas bangunan KFC Ranau tu, right in front me terus terpampang susuk tubuh seseorang yang saya sangat-sangat kenal. That was my first time seeing him as a husband to somebody else. He's on...

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Assalamualaikum. Good morning loves! Saya dah update tentang aktiviti Tari Kirana di majlis persandingan Pentung (29 Mei) dan majlis persandingan Zaba (5 Jun) dan traditional greetings di War Memorial Kundasang (11 Jun). Ada empat lagi update persembahan Tari Kirana di majlis persandingan Budi (8 Jun), majlis persandingan di Kg Kiaburi (11 Jun), di Hotel Perkasa (12 Jun) dan di Papar (26 Jun). Penat...

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Just sharing my love experience. I just got a phone call from him, rakan sekampus dan a good friend of mine back then when I was a student. Dia orang KL. Menetap dan kerja di situ. Kadang-kadang dia sebenarnya akan contact, tanya khabar, dan dia tidak lepas dari mengenang kisah waktu kami ke Tasik Jitra satu waktu dulu beberapa hari sebelum kami bawa...

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Really. Dulu before I met Zul, saya nekad dalam hati saya taknak couple-couple dah. Lepas jumpa Zul, everything changed. I was so in love with that guy. Saya bersedia terima segala apa yang dia ada. Saya bersedia hadapi dan terima kekurangan dan kelebihan dia. Saya berusaha slowly pujuk ayah dan mama untuk terima dia. Parents tidak berapa setuju pada awalnya, tapi bila mungkin...

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Semalam I call you, you tak answerYou kata you keluar pergi dinnerYou kata you keluar dengan kawan youBut when I called Tommy he said it wasn't trueSo I drove my car pergi DamansaraTommy kata maybe you tengok bolaTapi bila I sampai... you, you tak adaLagi la I jadi gilaSo I called and called sampai you answerYou kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengarMy phone...

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Although I may occasionally mention about my past, it will simply because I feel better talking about it. The present moment is what I am much more interested in. Banyak plan di hadapan saya. Dalam masa sebulan setelah peristiwa 25 haribulan April yang saya rasa very the bullshit tu, termasuk seminggu sebelum pernikahan dia cari aku tanpa rasa bersalah cuba untuk mendapatkan aku...

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People freak me out. They move too fast, they speak too loud, and they are just plain unpredictable. One minute they’re there, then next they’re not. One day they love you and the next they want to beat the life out of you and suddenly they appear wanting you back. The demands, the insincerity, the selfishness, the greediness. I wrote this entry on...

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You see, I'm forgetful - usually of the bad things that have happened to me. He came my way today and.. When I see him, I see all the good times we had. I see him and felt all the good feelings I've felt while I am still with him. I miss spending the whole day with him, I miss our silly jokes,...

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Dah delete dari sidebar blog ini. It's been a week.. A tough week after three most magical months he gave me. Still, please keep this on mind, please. Don't tell me how to act. Don't tell me how to be professional. Don't tell me to take this as easy as you do. I had enough of it just on my own. I am...

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Waktu awal-awal dulu, aku dah berjanji pada diri sendiri, pada saat aku jatuh cinta sekali lagi, aku akan bertanggungjawab atas apa juga risiko yang bakal aku hadapi nanti. Bila jadi macam yang sedang berlaku hari ini, di sini, aku dah longlai tapi aku harus tabah. Inilah risikonya. This is what I talked about. Jauh di sudut hati, sejujurnya aku terlalu rindu pada dia....

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Menangis mendengar lagu Sedetik Lebih oleh Anuar Zain. Lagu yang sangat menggambarkan perasaan saya untuk dia. Sangat. Ini lagu saya minta dia dengar waktu kami genap dua bulan. Tapi.. Menangis mendengar lagu Sedetik Lebih oleh Anuar Zain. Lagu yang sangat menggambarkan perasaan saya untuk dia. Sangat. Ini lagu saya minta dia dengar waktu kami genap dua bulan. Tapi.. ...

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'Kisah Cinta' yang masih punya pautan di sidebar blog itu - biarkan saja dulu. Masih belum bersedia mengubah apa-apa. Sekurang-kurangnya, bukan secara drastik. Biar saja. Tidak sanggup rasanya menghukum kenangan indah itu lantaran apa yang sedang terjadi saat ini. Aku masih belum tega. Tiada sekelumit rasa benci. Walaupun mungkin dia yang membuang aku dalam hidupnya, hati aku ini masih menyayangi. Walaupun selepas apa...

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Banyak yang dia buat untuk saya dan perkara-perkara yang dia biar saya buat sendiri termasuklah semua apa yang dia katakan dengan ikhlas di depan saya - segalanya sangat bermakna. I don't know how to say this, but I am so grateful having him in my life now. Di depan dia, semua ini agak sukar saya nak katakan. Well, I guess, I am not...

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"..when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible" Two months, one week and six days. My life completely changed. Walaupun hubungan kami masih belum ada apa-apa ikatan yang pasti lagi, tapi dalam setiap perbincangan kami, both of us selalu include each other for future...

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{ picture removed } Selain show Tari Kirana 26 Mac baru-baru ini, hari yang sama juga genap dua bulan kisah cinta kita bermula. Until now I still can't believe that I will end up liking you more than I thought I would. You gave me two most magical months I'd ever live.. It healed what has been hurt and feels like the fates'...

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Ahhh selesai akhirnya perform. Lepas ni boleh bernafas sikit, tapi sikit je lah. Banyak lagi benda nak kena kejar. Nak tulis blog ni pun rasa macam tak menyempat saja, tapi kena tulis juga sebab kamu nak baca kannn.. wahaha perasan gitu. Gurau tau, jangan marah. Untuk hal performance kami malam semalam, at the end, all went well. Adalah ketidakfahaman lagu sikit dekat awal-awal...

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Baru selesai mandi. I know quite late dah ni for a morning shower bhahaha. Tadi saya ada blogwalk dekat satu blog ni. My favourite blog, tiap kali ada update, mesti datang baca. A sweet lady, named Arianna. One of her latest entry, about her and her boyfriend - Things Get Cold. Morning talk on the phone. And ended up with his quick hang...

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